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DANEZ SMITH

The 17-Year-Old & the Gay Bar

this gin-heavy heaven, blessed ground to think gay & mean we.

bless the fake id & the bouncer who knew

this need to be needed, to belong, to know how

a man taste full on vodka & free of sin. i know not which god to pray to.

i look to christ, i look to every mouth on the dance floor, i order

a whiskey coke, name it the blood of my new savior. he is just.

he begs me to dance, to marvel men with the

                                                                         dash

of hips i brought, he deems my mouth in some stranger’s mouth necessary.

bless that man’s mouth, the song we sway sloppy to, the beat, the bridge, the length

of his hand on my thigh & back & i know not which country i am of.

i want to live on his tongue, build a home of gospel & gayety

i want to raise a city behind his teeth for all boys of choirs & closets to refuge in.

i want my new god to look at the mecca i built him & call it damn good

or maybe i’m just tipsy & free for the first time, willing to worship anything i can taste.

HOPKINS

Spring and Fall to a Young Child

 

Márgarét, áre you gríeving

Over Goldengrove unleaving?

Leáves like the things of man, you

With your fresh thoughts care for, can you?

Ah! ás the heart grows older

It will come to such sights colder

By and by, nor spare a sigh

Though worlds of wanwood leafmeal lie;

And yet you wíll weep and know why.

Now no matter, child, the name:

Sórrow’s spríngs áre the same.

Nor mouth had, no nor mind, expressed

What heart heard of, ghost guessed:

It ís the blight man was born for,

It is Margaret you mourn for.

MARVELL

On a Drop of Dew

See how the orient dew, 

Shed from the bosom of the morn   

   Into the blowing roses, 

Yet careless of its mansion new, 

For the clear region where ’twas born   

   Round in itself incloses: 

   And in its little globe’s extent, 

Frames as it can its native element. 

   How it the purple flow’r does slight,   

      Scarce touching where it lies, 

   But gazing back upon the skies,   

      Shines with a mournful light, 

         Like its own tear, 

Because so long divided from the sphere. 

   Restless it rolls and unsecure, 

      Trembling lest it grow impure, 

   Till the warm sun pity its pain,   

And to the skies exhale it back again. 

      So the soul, that drop, that ray   

Of the clear fountain of eternal day,   

Could it within the human flow’r be seen, 

      Remembering still its former height, 

      Shuns the sweet leaves and blossoms green, 

      And recollecting its own light, 

Does, in its pure and circling thoughts, express 

The greater heaven in an heaven less.   

      In how coy a figure wound,   

      Every way it turns away:   

      So the world excluding round,   

      Yet receiving in the day, 

      Dark beneath, but bright above, 

      Here disdaining, there in love. 

   How loose and easy hence to go, 

   How girt and ready to ascend, 

   Moving but on a point below, 

   It all about does upwards bend. 

Such did the manna’s sacred dew distill,   

White and entire, though congealed and chill,   

Congealed on earth : but does, dissolving, run   

Into the glories of th’ almighty sun.

AUDEN

from September 1 1939

All I have is a voice
To undo the folded lie,
The romantic lie in the brain
Of the sensual man-in-the-street
And the lie of Authority
Whose buildings grope the sky:
There is no such thing as the State
And no one exists alone;
Hunger allows no choice
To the citizen or the police;
We must love one another or die.

RILKE

Go to the Limits of your Longing

Listen

God speaks to each of us as he makes us,
then walks with us silently out of the night.

These are the words we dimly hear:

You, sent out beyond your recall,
go to the limits of your longing.
Embody me.

Flare up like a flame
and make big shadows I can move in.

Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror.
Just keep going. No feeling is final.
Don’t let yourself lose me.

Nearby is the country they call life.
You will know it by its seriousness.

Give me your hand.

Where I am I don't know,. 

I'll never know, in the silence, you don't know, you must go on, I can't go on, I'll go on. -- SB

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